The Prayer Registry Photo Gallery—October Photographs—Always Connected In Spirit

Meet Paul G. Babloski Jr.—Due for Prayer on October 1

Paul G. Babloski Jr. passed on October 1, 2009

Introducing Matthew Paul Romero—Due for Prayer on October 1

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Matthew Paul Romero passed on October 1, 2011

Introducing Jared Barlet–Due for Prayer on October 2

Jared Barlet passed on October 2, 2006

Meet Tin Cetic—Due for Prayer on October 2

Tin Cetic passed on October 2, 2010

Meet Mickey Wayne Oakes—Due for Prayer on October 2

Mickey Wayne Oakes passed on October 2, 1999

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Mickey Wayne Oakes passed on October 2, 1999

Introducing Tiffany Lauren Williams—Due for Prayer on October 3

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Tiffany Lauren Williams passed on October 3, 2013

Meet John David Ross—Due for Prayer on October 4

John David Ross passed on October 4, 2008

Introducing Joshua Dapp—Due for Prayer on October 4

Joshua Dapp passed on October 4, 2008

Meet Michael B. Young—Due for Prayer on October 4

Michael B. Young passed on October 4, 2010

Introducing Christi Michelle Nowak—Due for Prayer on October 5

Christi Michelle Nowak passed on October 5, 2005

Introducing Chance Matthew Lain Skinner—Due for Prayer on October 5

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Chance Matthew Lain Skinner passed on October 5, 2014

Meet Erik Medhus—Due for Prayer on October 6

Erik Medhus passed on October 6, 2009

Introducing Marvin S. Hardin—due for Prayer on October 6

Marvin S. Hardin passed on October 6, 2002

Meet Michael David Edwards—Due for Prayer

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Michael David Edwards passed on October 6, 2011

Meet Amber Bouzek Dickerson—Due for Prayer on October 6

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Amber Bouzek Dickerson passed on October 6, 2014.

Introducing Payton Ryan Miller—Due for Prayer on October 7

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Payton Ryan Miller passed on October 7, 2018

Meet Sara Elyse Eastley—Due for Prayer on October 8

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Sara Elyse Eastley passed on October 8, 2010

Introducing Jeffrey Wittler—Due for Prayer on October 9

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Jeffrey Wittler passed on October 9, 2010

Meet Nicholas Dean Metcalf—Due for Prayer on October 9

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Nicholas Dean Metcalf passed on October 9, 2015

Introducing Robert Travis Miller—Due for Prayer on October 9

Robert Travis Miller passed on October 9, 2011

Meet Cooper Blaize Wilmoth—Due for Prayer on October 9

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Introducing Buffy Bergsetter—Due for Prayer on October 10

Buffy Bergsetter passed on October 10, 2001

Meet Christopher ( Chris ) Mann—Due for Prayer on October 10

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Meet Elliott John Stapleton-Coory—Due for Prayer on

October 10

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Elliott John Stapleton-Coory passed on October 10, 2008

Meet Shawn Leins—Due for Prayer on October 12

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Shawn Leins passed on October 12, 2012

Introducing Timothy Castaneda—Due for Prayer on October 13

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Meet Michael Joseph Tracey—Due for prayer on October 13

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Michael Joseph Tracey passed on October 13, 2011

Introducing Jonathan Michael Means—Due for Prayer on October 14

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Johathan Michael Means passed on October 14, 2009

Meet Aliscia “Lissie” Renae Ball—Due for Prayer on October 14

Aliscia Renae Ball passed on October 14, 2008

Meet Emily Foux—Due for Prayer on October 15

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Emily Foux passed on October 15, 2012

Introducing Cody Adam Acton—Due for Prayer on October 16

Cody Adam Acton passed on October 16, 2010

Meet Bryan Scott Miller The 2nd—Due for Prayer on October 17

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Bryan Scott Miller The 2nd passed on October 17, 2019

Meet Jada Soleil Birth—Due for Prayer on October 18

Jada Soleil Birth passed on October 18, 2010

Introducing Jordan Vaughn Birth—Due for Prayer on October 18

Jordan Vaughn Birth passed on October 18, 2010

Meet Merridith JoAnn Flick-Burke—Due for Prayer on October 18

Merridith JoAnn Flick-Burke passed on October 18, 2001

Meet Benjamin “Benny” Corcoran—Due for Prayer on October 19

Benjamin Corcoran passed on October 19, 2010

Meet Joshua Daniel Wenzlick—Due for Prayer on October 19

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Joshua Daniel Wenzlick passed on October 19, 2016

Meet Ian Christopher Jones—Due for Prayer on October 20

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Ian Christopher Jones passed on October 20, 2014

 

Meet Samantha Roccki—Due for Prayer on October 20

Samantha Roccki passed on October 20, 2016.

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Samantha Roccki passed on October 20, 2016 1.

Samantha Roccki passed on October 20, 2016

Introducing Morgan James Pierre Boisson—Due for Prayer on October 20

Morgan James Pierre Boisson passed on October 20, 2009

Meet Bradley Richardson Jr.—Due for Prayer on October 21

Bradley Richardson Jr. passed on October 21, 2010

Introducing David Christopher Sheehy—Due for Prayer on October 21

David Christopher Sheehy passed on October 21, 2009

Introducing Gennesare S. Healy—Due for Prayer on October 21

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Gennesare S. Healy passed on October 21, 2011

Meet Lionel Korff—Due for Prayer on October 21

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Lionel Korff passed on October 21, 2019

Introducing Bennett Haynie—Due for Prayer on October 22

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Bennett Haynie passed on October 22, 2012

Meet Anthony DeMaio—Due for Prayer on October 22

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Anthony DeMaio passed on October 22, 2015

Introducing Nicholas Michael Thau—Due for Prayer on October 22

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Nicholas Michael Thau passed on October 22, 2016

Meet Christina Ray Davila—Due for Prayer on October 23

Christina Ray Davila passed on October 23, 2011

Meet Lilly May Mowen-Byrt—Due for Prayer on October 23

Lilly May Mowen-Byrt passed on October 23, 2010

Meet Travis Karl Ott—Due for Prayer on October 24

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Travis Karl Ott passed on October 24, 2013

Introducing Alexander Hanson Milun—Due for Prayer on October 24

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Alexander Hanson Milun passed on October 24, 2015

Meet Tiaan Ras Schlesinger—Due for Prayer on October 24

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Tiaan Ras Schlesinger passed on October 24, 2012

Tiaan Ras Schlesinger passed on October 24, 2012

Meet John Michael Floyd—Due for Prayer on October 24

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John Michael Floys passed on October 24, 2015

Introducing Joshua Andrew Wagaman—Due for Prayer on October 25

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Joshua Andrew Wagaman passed on October 25, 2009

Meet Kraig Mitchell Coffin—Due for Prayer on October 26

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Kraig Mitchell Coffin passed on October 26, 2013

Introducing Morial A. O’Neill—Due for Prayer on October 26

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Moriah A. O’Neill passed on October 26, 2012

Meet Joseph J. Ross—Due for Prayer on October 26

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Joseph J. Ross passed on October 26, 2011

Introducing Jimmy Dwayne Sidwell—Due for Prayer on October 26

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Jimmy Dwayne Sidwell passed on October 26, 2013

Meet Stefanie Dawn Burnett—Due for Prayer on October 27STEFANIE DAWN BURNETT10:27:01

Stefanie Dawn Burnett passed on October 27, 2001

Meet Heather Marie Wilson—Due for Prayer on October 27

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Heather Marie Wilson passed on October 27, 2014

Meet Jennifer Lea Briggs—Due for Prayer on October 27

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Jennifer Lea Briggs (on left) passed on October 27, 2014. Seen here with Heather Wilson

Introducing Paul Douglas Layton—Due for Prayer on October 27

Paul Douglas Layton passed on October 27, 2002

Meet Jill Claire Wilson—Due for Prayer on October 29

(Jill is on the right) Jill Claire Wilson passed on October 29, 2008

Meet Liam Kenneth Regensburg—Due for Prayer on October 29

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Liam Kenneth Regensburg passed on October 29, 2012

Introducing Jason Malachi La Fore—Due for Prayer on

October 30

Jason Malachi LaFore passed on October 30, 2004.

Jason Malachi La Fore passed on October 30, 2004

Meet Jeremy Wright—Due for Prayer on October 30

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Jeremy Wright passed on October 30, 2011

Introducing Jaclyn Escala—Due for Prayer on October 30

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Jacklyn Escala Passed on October 30, 2014

Introducing Sheree Nicole Cooney—Due for Prayer on October 31

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Sheree Nicole Cooney passed on October 31, 2015

Meet Skylar Jordan Robins—Due for Prayer on October 31

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Skylar Jordan Roberts passed on October 31, 2016

(seen here with his little brother)

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The Prayer Registry Photo Gallery—September Photographs—Not Forgotten for a Second!

Meet Elizabeth Nicole Burling—Due for Prayer on September 1

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Elizabeth Nicole Burling passed on September 1, 2014

Introducing Kerri Amanda Rooks—Due for Prayer on

September 1

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Kerry Amanda Rooks passed on September 1, 2012

Meet Philip William Castle—Due for Prayer on September 2

Philip William Castle passed on September 2, 2009

Introducing Michel Real LeBlanc—Due for Prayer on September 3

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Michel Real LeBlanc passed on September 3, 1995

Meet Dale Jr. Breitweser—Due for Prayer on September 4

Dale Jr. Breitweser passed on September 4, 2011

Introducing Matthew C. Hus—Due for Prayer on

September 4

Matthew C. Hus passed on September 4, 2010

Meet Adam John King—Due for Prayer on September 4

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Adam John King passed on September 4, 2016

Introducing Zachary James Pate “Big Pate”—Due for Prayer on September 5

Zachary James Pate passed on September 5, 2006

Meet Jodi Battles Sunday—Due for Prayer on September 5

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Jodi Battles Sunday passed on September  5, 2015

Meet Lauren Rae Vandale—Due for Prayer on September 6

Lauren Rae Vandale passed on September 6, 2014.

Lauren Rae Vandale passed on September 6, 2014

Introducing Matthew William Bowes—Due for Prayer on September 7

Matthew William Bowes passed on September 7, 2007

Meet Levi Dorn—Due for Prayer on September 7

Levi Dorn passed on September 7, 2006

Meet Julian Gerard Rosario-Valentin—Due for Prayer on September 8

Julian Gerard Rosario-Valentin passed on September 8, 2012

Introducing Ric Maron—Due for Prayer on September 8

Ric Maron passed on September 8, 2009

Meet Brian Seamus South—Due for Prayer on September 9

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Brian Seamus South passed on September 9, 2015

Meet The Schmidt Family—Due for Prayer on September 9

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Christopher, Diana, Sam, Connor and Ethan (in utero) passed on September 9, 2012

Meet  Matthew Ryan Kwasnica—Due for Prayer on September 9

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Matthew Ryan Kwasnica passed on  September 9th, 2017

Introducing Angel Siler—Due for Prayer on September 10

Angel Siler passed on September 10, 2011

Meet Adam Patrick Weiner—Due for Prayer on

September 11

Adam Patrick Weiner passed on September 11, 2008

Introducing Danielle Marie Silva—Due for Prayer on September 11

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Danielle Marie Silva passed on September 11, 2007

Meet Robert “Robby” Ostrowski—Due for Prayer on September 11

Robert “Robby” Ostrowski passed on September 11, 2010

Introducing Kurt James Smith—Due for Prayer on September 12

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Kurt James Smith passed on September 12, 2013

Introducing Angus William McGiven—Due for Prayer on September 12

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Angus William McGiven passed on September 12, 2017

Meet Aaron Sylla—Due for Prayer on September 13

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Aaron Sylla passed on September 13, 2012

Meet Matthew Peter Rein—Due for Prayer on September 13

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Matthew Peter Rein passed on September 13, 2014

Introducing Paul Henry Harkins—Due for Prayer on

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Paul Henry Harkins passed on September 13, 2008

Meet TJ Schrimsher—Due for Prayer on September 14

TJ Shrimsher passed on September 14, 2007

Meet David Joseph Richter—Due for Prayer on September 16

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David Joseph Richter passed on September 16, 2015

Meet Jacob C. Pearson—Due for Prayer on September 17

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Jacob C. Pearson passed on September 17, 2006

Introducing Aleksandar Mirkpovic—Due for Prayer on September 17

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Aleksandar Mirkpovic passed on September 17, 2009

Introducing Brooklyn “Brookie” Corinne Basham—Due for Prayer on September 18

Brooklyn “Brookie” Corinne Basham passed on September 18, 2011

Meet Sean Edwin Luis Murray—Due for Prayer on

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Sean Edwin Luis Murray passed on September 18, 2004

Meet Victor Brian Emmerich—Due for Prayer on

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Victor Brian Emmerich passed on September 18, 2009

Meet Kenny Choo Jian—Due for Prayer on September 18

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Kenny Choo Jian passed on September 18, 2009

Meet Joseph Dailidas—Due for Prayer on September 19

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Joseph Dailidas passed on September 19, 2016

Introducing Emma Lissy Torres—Due for Prayer on September 19

Emma Lissy Torres passed on September 19, 2018.

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Emma Lissy Torres passed on September 19, 2018.

Meet  John Newhall III—Due for Prayer on September 20

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 John Newhall III passed on September 20, 2017

Introducing Elizabeth Jean Wencl—Due for Prayer on

September 20

Elizabeth Jean Wencl passed on September 20, 2003

Introducing Nicholas D. Hendrix—Due for Prayer on September 21

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Nicholas D. Hendrix passed on September 21, 2009

Meet Justin Brook Mallory—Due for Prayer on

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Justin Brook Mallory passed on September 21, 2003

Introducing Dunya Lynn Najim—Due for Prayer on

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Dunya Lynn Najim passed on September 22, 2010

Meet Maxim McGrath—Due for Prayer on September 22

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Maxim McGrath passed on September 22, 2017

Meet  Erin Evelyn Moodley—Due for Prayer on September 23

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Erin Evelyn Moodley passed on September 23, 2018

Introducing Cody Alexander Chappell—Due for Prayer on September 23

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Cody Alexander Chappell passed on September 23, 2012

Meet Salvatore Marchese—Due for Prayer on

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Salvatore Marchese passed on September 23, 2010

Introducing Cameron Paddock—Due for Prayer on September 24

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Cameron Paddock passed on September 24, 2016

Meet Pfeiffer Joyce Marie Fender—Due for Prayer on September 25

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Pfeiffer Joyce Marie Fender passed on September 25, 2013

Meet Andrew Latherow—Due for Prayer on

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Andrew Latherow passed on September 25, 2011

Introducing Kieran Grantham—Due for Prayer on September 26

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Kieran Grantham passed on September 26, 2017.

Meet Sarah Kozushin—Due for Prayer on

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Sarah Kozushin passed on September 27, 2011

Introducing Jacob Seth Neumann—Due for Prayer on

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Jacob Seth Neumann passed on September 27, 2011

Introducing Torie Brooke Lingenfelter—Due for Prayer on September 27

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Torie Brooke Lingenfelter passed on September 27, 2012

Introducing Iva Senicar—Due for Prayer on September 28

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Iva Senicar passed on September 28, 2015.

Iva Senicar passed on September 28, 2015

Meet Brendon Holtzen—Due for Prayer on September 28

Brendon Holtzen passed on September 28, 2011

Meet Richard Raymond Wellmer—Due for Prayer on     September 28

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Richard Raymond Wellmer passed on September 28, 2013

Introducing Geoffrey Michael Adams—Due for Prayer on September 29

Geoffrey Michael Adams passed on September 29, 2002

Meet Tim King—Due for Prayer on September 30

Tim King passed on September 30, 2010

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LOST AND FOUND—A Mother Connects-Up With Her Son In Spirit—Chapter 5

LOST AND FOUND

Chapter 5

Dan Gives Me My First Sign—The Free Bird Incident

A week or so after Danny passed I was lying in bed, unable to bring myself to get up and get dressed.  My heart was heavy and I could think of no way to lighten it. For lack of anything else to do, I opened my computer and began to look at the music that was listed in my I-tunes library. My eyes immediately locked on a song by the name of “Free Bird”.  I had never listened to the song or had any interest in it before. It was included in a movie soundtrack that I had previously imported into my computer but now, for some unknown reason, I felt drawn to the song. As a matter of fact, I felt as if I had to hear the song. I hit play and proceeded to be astounded by the lyrics, because to me, the words could have been coming right out of Danny’s mouth! Following are the lyrics to “Free Bird”:

 

If I leave here tomorrow

Would you still remember me?

I must be traveling on

Cause there’s too many places I’ve yet to see

But if I stay here with you now

Things just couldn’t be the same

Cause I’m as free as a bird now

And this bird you cannot change

Whoa and this bird you cannot change

Lord knows I can’t change

Lord knows I can’t change

 

I sat in wonder. Could Dan possibly be sending me a message through this song? It certainly felt that way but of course, I couldn’t know. The fact that I was drawn to listen to lyrics that touched me so profoundly, gave me cause to ponder. I decided to nickname Dan “Free Bird” for no other reason than it felt right. I knew that as a bereaved parent, my own imagination could be weaving the entire scenario to distract me from my pain. Every mother wants to believe that she is receiving messages from her child, however, six weeks later the plot thickened.

It was a warm, late afternoon in August when Jerry decided to play golf at the country club near our home in Ardsley that we had recently vacated. Feeling out of sorts and wanting to stay close to Jerry, I decided to accompany him to the club and ride around in the golf cart with him while he played. Now that we lived in the city, the golf course seemed very peaceful and serene, like a respite in the country. I have always found dusk an enchanting time of day, and so I accompanied my husband that day as he drove up to Westchester.

 

As soon as Jerry pulled off the highway, I was hit with a wave of sorrow. The familiar streets and stores where Dan and I had been together so many times were all around me and my heart began to ache. The pain literally felt like a knife in my chest, making me gasp for air. All I could think of was Danny and how much I missed him and how unbearable it was to accept the fact that he would never drive his car through these familiar streets again, or cook dinner for me in the Ardsley house kitchen. I began to regret that I had come up to Westchester in the first place. My heart, like a heavy weight was pulling me down into deep despair when I felt this huge, warm, presence surround me. Thoughts entered into my mind so quickly that I could hardly keep up with them. This is what I heard:

 

Mom, stop idealizing me. It was not a bed of roses and it was never going to be. And whether you realize it or not, I am with you more now than I ever was then. Think about it, Mom. I didn’t usually get up before three o’clock. When I did I could be very grouchy. Later in the day I would often go out with my friends and then stay up way late. Now I am with you all the time. Think of it this way…you used to worry about me all the time. Now you just miss me. That’s not so bad. There are things worse than death, like incarceration Mom. Things were not going to be easy with me. I’m better now and that should make you feel better too. You don’t have to be so sad. I’m okay, I still love you and I know that you still love me so feel better…please.  When you are so sad, it makes me feel so guilty for screwing up. You have to try to feel better if you want to help me.

 

I was blown away because it all made sense and it sounded so much like my boy. It comforted me enormously and the pain in my chest began to ease. As we pulled into the parking lot of the country club, I blew my nose and wiped my face dry from the torrential flood of tears that soaked my cheeks. Jerry took off to the locker room while I began to make my way to the path that leads to the first tee, where I meet him. As I was walking along the tree-lined path, I spotted a group of men approaching me with their golf carts. Always the vain female my thoughts turned to all the crying that went on in the car. “Oh my God,” I thought, “I must be a mess” and as I was fumbling in my purse for my pocket mirror I heard, “They are probably all assholes Mom, why do you care?”

Now, I can’t even begin to tell you how much more that sounds like Danny than me. I started to laugh out loud and mentally I answered him back by saying, “Well Danny, they might not all be assholes but you’re right, why do I care?” and I left the pocket mirror in my purse and met Jerry at the first tee, feeling very much better than I had in the car. Jerry played for a couple of hours as the sun set and the birds chirped and my heart felt a great deal lighter than it had in a long time.

 

However, as any bereaved person will tell you, the highs are short lived and as soon as we began driving back to the city, nagging doubts surfaced. “How do I know that was Danny speaking? It’s probably just my imagination” and I persisted in this line of reasoning as we drove south on the Henry Hudson Parkway. I was beginning to lose heart when I got an idea. I would ask Danny to give me a sign. As we continued to drive south on the parkway with the Hudson River just to our right I mentally said, “Danny, if this is really you and not just my imagination, give me a sign.” As soon as the words passed through my mind I had the impulse to look over at the river. To my astonishment, sitting right there, in plain view, was a beautiful white sailboat with the name FREE BIRD written across the side in big bold royal blue letters!  “Oh my God” I thought, and I shouted out for Jerry to look quickly. Fortunately he caught a glimpse of the Free Bird before pulling the car off the highway. “Okay my boy,” I said to Dan mentally, “You’re on. From now on I will take you at your word and I won’t doubt you ever!”

 

I can’t say that I have always been able to live up to that kind of promise. Doubts do surface from time to time, but if what I hear in my mind sounds more like Dan than me, makes good sense and brings me comfort, I take it on faith that it is coming from him. After a sign like that, what would you do?

 

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LOST AND FOUND-A Mother Connects-Up With Her Son In Spirit

LOST AND FOUND

Chapter 9

Danny Puts Ideas Directly Into My Mind—Erin Receives A Christmas   Gift From Danny—Confirmation on a “Purple Paper”

Usually when thoughts and ideas enter my mind that I feel are inspired by Dan, I think about them, but this was the first time the thoughts led me to take a physical action. It was December and I had purchased small holiday gifts for Aaron and Jess when one day, sitting around the apartment, the thought came to me that Danny wanted me to purchase a Christmas present for his Aaron’s girlfriend Erin, who he had known. The thought kept surfacing, “Mom, buy something for Erin from me.” The thought persisted in my mind and so I responded to the thought. “Well, what did you have in mind?” I thought back as if talking to Dan directly, to which I heard, “Get her a pretty necklace from me, something with a heart on it.“ “That’s easy enough,” I thought and then I started to second-guess myself. Could this really be what Dan wants me to do? Should I trust this kind of thing? Am I losing it?”

Please understand, it’s not as if I heard an audible ghostly voice calling out to me saying, “Sheeeeerrrrryyyyyyyy……pleeeeaaaaaassssseeeee gooooooo;” nothing of the kind. These thoughts enter my mind very quietly and at first glance, appear to be nothing more than my imagination. I’m sure you have these thoughts too. The difference is that I am paying attention to them, sorting through them and trying to understand their source.

I considered going downstairs and across Broadway to my favorite neighborhood jewelry store, The Jewelry Boutique. I knew I could find something there that Erin would love, but then I thought again, “Am I losing it here? Could this really be what Dan wants me to do? Should I trust this kind of feeling and respond to it?”

I analyzed the situation and reasoned my way through it. Maybe it was a message from Dan and maybe it wasn’t, but following through, in a case like this, could only be a good thing. After all, purchasing a gift for my son’s lovely girlfriend was something I should have done anyway. So I gathered my purse and headed to the store where I found exactly what I was looking for. I purchased a pretty gold heart on a delicate chain and waited while it was gift wrapped beautifully. Happily, I headed home.

A week later I had the opportunity to be present in a group session with Roland Comtois, at Star Visions in Chappaqua, New York.  Aaron and Erin accompanied me and unbeknownst to me, Erin was wearing the new necklace.  About midway through the session Roland handed me one of his “Purple Papers” with a few messages written on it from Dan. The first one expressed his regrets that we had no time to say goodbye, which was true. The second simply said, “No more problems, no more problems,” which brought me much relief. Underneath the written messages there was a drawing of a necklace with a heart on it. Roland then asked me what the necklace was about. I explained about the thoughts and feelings that led me to purchase the necklace and then Erin stood up and showed the group what she was wearing around her neck. Then to my amazement Roland said, Dan says, “Good job mom. You got it right!”

You can imagine my excitement to hear those words come out of Roland’s mouth and to have the heart drawing on my purple paper; both confirmations of my experience with Dan. If it were not for these kinds of confirmations, however, I don’t think I would have realized what was going on. It’s way too easy to dismiss these thoughts as nonsense, especially when we are hard wired to believe only what we see with our physical eyes and hear with our physical ears. But when the thoughts check out and you get that kind of verification, you can’t help but step back and acknowledge that somehow we are communicating. Now I pay more attention to those thoughts because I know they come in intermixed with my own, but they come in.

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How to Connect Up With Our Loved Ones In Spirit

Information on Connecting Up and The Love Infusion Healing Exercise.

On May 22, 2011, I was inspired by Dan to grab my journal and start taking notes. The ideas came very fast. Today is the first time I’ve had a moment to look them over and type them up. I hope you find them helpful. I’m sure Danny does too.

From Dan May 22, 2011

Dan:  Hey mom. Here is a good way to see this:  The veil between the worlds is very thin. You can imagine something like gauze of cheesecloth. It’s not solid, but permeable and energy can pass right through it.

In order to heal, it is more than helpful if you let this energy come into you. You have to go on blind faith here, because you cannot see any of this with your physical eyes, but would I lie to you? You need to know nothing more than we are here, to do this.

Sheri:  Is it really you?

Dan:  Who else could it be? Only I would stick to you guys like glue. You are my people, my concerns still and always. The chain is unbroken and the love unending. The more you allow yourself to feel it and take it in, the happier you are. Truth be told, you have far more access to me now than you did before, you just have to open up the window that is in your own mind.

You may ask, how I am to do that and I say simple. Bring your attention to your imagination for that is the window through which we will come to you! Don’t try to see us with your physical eyes, or hear us with your physical ears but instead look into the inner space that you think of as your imagination.

Then, ask me anything, tell me anything! Lay it out. I can handle it. You can speak your mind and heart out and remember, it is when YOU lock off and hold your feelings in that this huge, painful, lonely sadness envelops you, a greyness so drab that we cannot penetrate it.

But we say to you, we are here and we are near. Let us in and the healing can begin. This is not so hard to do. You all have an imagination!

Ask us anything. Imagine our answer. Eventually you we see that we come through that window. You will say, “It’s just my imagination!” I say to you, “What do you think imagination is and where do you think it comes from?”

That is one way to start connecting up, however there is also a way to just take in the love.  It’s called The Love Infusion. As with all things when you are dealing with us, start out with an affirmation like this:

Although I cannot see you, I accept that you are there, just on the other side of this thin and porous veil.

THE LOVE INFUSION, AN ENERGY EXCHANGE WITH SPIRIT—SENDING OUT AND DRAWING IN.

Envision your loved one standing about 3 feet away from you.  In your imagination create this image any way that you want. Begin breathing deeply and slowly, drawing breath into you and slowly letting it out. Breathing in fully, breathing out thoroughly.  Inhale deeply and fully and as you do this envision streams of healing energy entering into you. As you exhale, envision this energy going outward from you towards your loved one. Coordinate your breath with the visualization so that you are drawing energy into you with each inhale and sending that energy outward from you with each exhale. Feel the cool air passing out of the tip of your nostrils as you inhale and the warm air passing by your nostrils as you exhale. In-cool, out-warm, in-receiving, out-sending.  As you breathe in you think, “I am inhaling cool healing energy into me,” as you exhale you think, “ I am sending this healing energy and love outward to you.”  Now, as you exhale and mentally send this energy to your loved one, repeat in your mind, “I love you, I love you, I send you this love.” Now here’s the most healing part. As you inhale, imagine your loved saying those same words to you and breathe them in. “I love you, I love you, I send you this love.” And again, as you exhale, repeat those words and send the love from your heart to your beloved. Above all, allow yourself to deeply inhale the love and energy back into yourself that comes from spirit.

Sheri:  At first you have to use your imagination to set the scene. I don’t doubt for a minute that spirit comes in, for although I have never seen an apparition, I always feel better for doing the breathing. I feel that more healing comes to me in the way than by doing anything else, because in essence, I am connecting up with Dan. And keep in mind, it’s not that ideas don’t come to all of us, it’s that most of the time we don’t trust them! I refer you to these quotes from Albert Einstein that I love:

The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination.” Albert Einstein

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.” Albert Einstein

I hope that this information is helpful to you. Doing this really helps me and if, for the sake of playing my own devil’s advocate, it’s all in my mind, IT STILL HELPS ME!

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A Message from Dan for The Prayer Team

Dearest Prayer Team,

I’ve been going through my recordings and and notes from the past 2 and a half years and I found a message from medium Roland Comtois that I may not have passed on. Many of you may know that Roland gets messages sometimes months before he actually meets up with the person who the message is for and he jots the messages down on purple construction paper.  He is working on a book now about what he calls his “Purple Papers.” I took a workshop with him in December of 2010 and we were given the opportunity to ask a question. I asked if Danny had any message for the other parents on The Prayer Team. I am copying this information directly from the “Purple Papers.”
Tell them that our hearts and our love goes on. Tell them to look everywhere, everyday without pain and without sadness. We are all in the most holiest of healing light. Just know we are not gone. Keep telling them I exist.
That was it. Short but powerful. Of course it is a tall task for them to ask us to look everywhere without pain and without sadness, but I think that our pain saddens them. I am including the following excerpt from my book-in-progress which for now I am calling “The Only Solace” and of course you all know I believe that comes from connecting up. In the following you will read some words that came into my mind less than 2 weeks after Danny passed. I typed them up as I heard them and then read it and was amazed!
Excerpt—-

Sometimes the ideas would come so quickly that I would turn on my computer to type out what I was hearing. The following material is dated July 13, 2008, 12 days after Danny passed. I call it:  Words of Wisdom From Dan

You’ve got to develop a little bit more of that “fuck it” attitude. You can’t sweat everything all the time. There is a medium ground between caring and not caring, the middle road, where one cares, but not to the point of devastation. You will self- destruct. I, in life, leaned too far to the not caring side and therefore could not adequately protect myself.  You, on the other hand, can sway so far to the caring side, that you do the harm to yourself without needing to put anything in your body.  It comes right from the emotions into your physical body.

I beg of you to lighten up, for your own sake as well as mine. Remember how you used to say that you are as happy as your most miserable child? Well, your misery can only bring me down because it fills me with remorse.  I understand your dilemma but, understand mine. If you want to help me, to lift me up, then lift yourself up and you lift us both up. You are a strong woman mom, stronger than you think. Pool all your resources now that have gotten you through in the past.   Know that I love you and always will and that you are the one that always said, “Love is the only thing that spans the grave”.

There will be time for us to venture forward and for me to join you in your work, as you have always known I would.  Give me some time to get my bearings and I will come through for you time and time again. We will grow stronger and in time you will walk with both feet solidly on the ground, knowing that I am by your side at all times.

If you must cry mommy, then cry for all those who are suffering now, they are all over the place, the lost and lonely ones, the poor and hungry ones, the sick and disabled ones, the oppressed and forsaken ones. Don’t cry for me, for I am ok and so are you. This separation as you see it is temporary and nothing so tragic has happened here. This is the life we lead, one that incorporates death as surely as it encapsulates birth and one cannot exist without the other.

Go forward in peace and trust that I am with you and that you have not been forsaken, you are only experiencing another facet of life that many have experienced before you and that many shall experience after you, the loss of a child.  But those children are only lost to you in the flesh. In spirit each is alive and vital.  If only you could see just a small glimpse more than you do.  But remember, faith is belief in that which is not visible. If it were self evident, why would there be any need for faith?

I leave you for now with the fervent prayer that you rise up and live up to the knowledge that you have worked so hard to cultivate. I know that these are big words for me, but it is your vocabulary that makes this possible.  I just send you the impression. You flesh it out in words.

Mommy, I love you more than ever. Can you feel it? Open up your heart and feel it. It is stronger than the pain. Like you always said, Love is the strongest, most powerful force in the universe, the only thing that really makes life worth living, so feel it now.

I was moved by what I had written. I hadn’t thought of my grief in terms of how it could be affecting Dan. I kept thinking about what he said about needing to lift myself in order to lift him.

“Well, your misery can only bring me down because it fills me with remorse.  I understand your dilemma but, understand mine. If you want to help me, to lift me up, then lift yourself up and you lift us both up.”

It made a lot of sense, especially in his case where he passed by his own hand. Guilt has never been a stranger to me so I could easily imagine feeling terribly guilty if my actions had brought so much pain to so many. But how was I to lift myself? What a tall task, yet as his mother, how could I not try?

For the first time it really struck me that what I feel and do still affects Danny. This seemed radical to me, even though I had believed in the presence of spirit for a long time. Now I wondered how I could think that Danny existed but was without any feelings? He may be a bloodless ghost but he is not soulless.

When I asked myself if there was any way that I could lift my spirits I found myself confronted with enormous resistance to feeling better. There was almost an unspoken understanding that if Danny could not enjoy a meal that I certainly shouldn’t either. It seemed sacrilegious to do anything that my son couldn’t do and even my breathing had become shallow.

However, now I felt obligated to think about Dan’s words because they made sense. If I accepted that he had gone on, (and I had) how could I negate his feelings? Wouldn’t I feel remorse if my actions, accidental or otherwise, had brought about so much suffering in the people I loved?

As a mother, I have always tried to help my children in any way that I could but this seemed a tall task. Still, if it would help Danny, didn’t I have to consider it? What I discovered was that I was not allowing myself to experience any happiness, because, in light of Dan’s passing, I felt it was wrong. I had a lot of thinking to do about this. If I was going to live believing in the valid presence of spirit then I had to make room for it, and be open to the messages that came to me, either through my own spiritual window or that provided by the mediums. I realized that to accept that Dan exists also means being open to his experience and if my sorrow was causing him to feel remorse, then I knew I had to work on it.

“If you want to help me, to lift me up, then lift yourself up and you lift us both up.”

I knew this wouldn’t be easy…the joyous bereaved?  Come on. Isn’t that the biggest misnomer? But underneath all this confusion my heart was dancing to think that Danny really was himself, in another form and in another realm, yes, but himself! His spirit had survived death and he was in a good state of mind, and he still loved me. I decided to work to keep my heart and mind open and to continue to explore connecting up with Danny in any way, shape, or form I could find.

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The Only Solace—Chapter Three-The Days Following

The Only Solace—Chapter Three—The Days Following

The first few days following our discovery of Danny were the hardest. I think the agony is the greatest at the beginning, before your mind has fully accepted the inevitable and rails against all logic to invent another outcome. The image comes to mind of an ice cube, trying not to melt on a hot day! You can’t stop the melting but you resist it, which evokes enormous suffering as your mind wrestles with reality.  For me there is sadness and a sense of failure in resignation, however, it’s less excruciating and exhausting than the mental struggle to un-write the written.

That first night after I crawled into bed I grabbed my computer and sent out a mass email contacting everyone in my address book. Between friends, family and the all the people who at one time or another had contacted me for spiritual healing, the list was sizable! The email briefly stated that my son Danny had passed of an overdose and requested that everyone send him a prayer. I then forgot about it as the next day found us knee deep in funeral arrangements. Although I am an interfaith minister, Jerry and I both come from Jewish families. At the time of Dan’s passing we were members of a synagogue in Hastings-on-Hudson, and so we naturally turned to our roots, which meant that we would have a Jewish funeral, which meant that all the arrangements had to be made immediately! I can’t say that I understand this, but in Jewish tradition the body is buried within a few days of passing and so there we were, making decisions we never dreamdt of making, in a hurry! It’s an agonizing, insane and unreal time. I must again mention Aaron who painstakingly worked out many of the arrangements for us, right down to buying Danny a new suit to be buried in.

Needless-to-say, the next few days were a haze of surreal events that I moved through in shock, grief and disbelief; underscored by a pervasive sense of guilt, because I had failed to protect my child! However, it was precisely at these moments of agonizing guilt that I first thought I heard Dan talking to me inside my head. I would hear the words in my own voice but I would hear it. “Mom”, he would say,  “this was not your fault. I did it, not you. Don’t beat yourself up. There was nothing you could have done, “ and then I’d think, “Well, that’s true” and I’d feel better for all of about 10 seconds, until I decided that it was merely my imagination that I was hearing.

Still, this continued to happen. Interestingly, I would always hear these thoughts when I was at my lowest ebb and truth be told, they always calmed me down considerably. I remember thinking that listening to what I was hearing inside my own mind was more comforting than talking to anyone, and that if I could just accept it as real, I would be able to heal a little. The problem was, however, that I was unable to accept what I was hearing as real. The thoughts, none-the-less, persisted. As soon as I would begin to berate myself, the thoughts would rush into my mind and immediately counteract my cruel accusations. For example, my mind would start attacking me with remarks like: “You should have known, you should have called and woke him” and then almost immediately I would hear, “But Mom you couldn’t have known, I didn’t even know,” which I believe to be true. I do not think that Danny expected the mixed-drug reaction to take his life. Still, I couldn’t know if these thoughts were coming from Dan or my own inner mind, but wherever they were coming from, they were both the sane and kind.

It soon occurred to me that what I needed to do was to make an appointment with the medium Glenn Dove in order to connect up with Danny through a means that I trusted. I had known Glenn since 1995 and have had the privilege of sitting in private sessions with him many times over the years. I had grown used to conversing with both Harry Edwards and my father on a regular basis through Glenn’s well-developed gift of mediumship. I wasn’t sure if it was too soon after Dan’s passing for him to come through to me, but I felt certain that at the very least, my father and Harry Edwards would, and that they would give me information about Dan.

Without mentioning that I had lost a son, I called Glenn Dove’s office and scheduled an appointment at his earliest convenience, which, due to a cancellation, was in less than a week.  Danny had passed on the 1st of July and I had managed to wing an appointment for the 8th! Bravo for cancellations! I brought my daughter Jessica with me. We were driven out to Glenn’s office on Long Island by a close friend, also a bereaved parent who kindly offered to escort us.

Almost as soon as the session began, Danny came through with my father. Following are excerpts from the session that took place on July 8, 2008. Present in the room was Glenn Dove, my daughter Jessica Migdol and myself. I want to point out that the information completely concurred with what we already knew to be true.  Some of those facts are:

  1. Danny passed of a mixture of alcohol and prescription drugs.
  2. Danny’s favorite person in the whole world was his little sister Jessica.
  3. Jessica was due for a birthday on July 28th.
  4. We had recently moved into the city, we were staying temporarily at my husband’s office/apartment and we were soon moving into a new apartment.
  5. Jessica was starting a new school in the city.
  6. Aaron had planned to travel to Florida to take the Florida Bar Exam on the week that Danny passed.
  7. I had set up a huge prayer list for Danny.
  8. Danny had never met my father who passed before Danny was born. Danny had seen my father’s portrait everyday because it hung in our home.
  9. Danny was reckless.

10. Danny loved his car.

11. On the day before the evening he passed he had a talk with his father who told him that he was playing “Russian Roulette.”

1st Glenn Dove Session—-Sheri and Jessica—July 8, 2008

Glenn:   Always, if I make mention of a name and you recognize it, let me know.  People come in sometimes that you’re not expecting.  You can come in with a mindset, expecting one thing and somebody else comes through. Let’s see who comes in first.  A couple of people are coming. I know there is someone over on the younger side…

Sheri:  Yes.

Glenn:  Because there’s an untimely passing. Hold on one second. Your dad’s behind him and points to his head. Someone was having a real hard time mentally. I’m not clear mentally, is what it is. I’m assuming the older male, I don’t say older, your dad wasn’t old-old, but then I’m getting younger.

Sheri:  Yes.

Glenn:  And this has just happened!

Sheri:  Yes!

Glenn:  Oh, this is just….

Sheri:  Yes, very recent.

Glenn:  Cause he’s telling me “Now.” This is really weird, because yesterday, I believe, I think your father tried coming to me because I was sensing somebody and I kind of felt it him, and he was trying to bring this younger male to me. Yesterday I did something like 9 readings, I went all day, came home, did phone readings last night because I’m taking off the rest of the week to go on vacation…so I didn’t contact you. I knew you would be coming in today.  I don’t understand whether somebody had a head issue, because he’s pointing to here and here. (Glenn points to his head). Maybe somebody wasn’t right up here, or something happened or both…it’s like I’m not clear headed, my head is foggy. It’s almost like I brought this on to myself. That’s what happened. This is either a suicide or an accidental…oh, I’m more confused. I don’t know how clear they are because he says….we’re talking like a week or two…

Sheri:  Yes, a week ago…

Glenn:  Usually it’s about 6 months before they can make it through.

Sheri:  It’s a week.

Glenn:  Other than my father, who came through the night he died, most of the time it takes about 6 months to a year before somebody is really able to come in, but your father said it’s because of him that he’s coming up in front.  D-A?  Hold on…

Sheri:  Yes, D-A…

Glenn:  Oh, wait a second…my God, I thought he was saying it’s Dad.  It’s DAN?

Sheri:  Yes

Glenn:  Oh my God.  Okay. But he says he took his life?

Sheri:  Well…

Glenn:  He was very confused before. Whatever he did, because he says something about, I don’t know if you know what happened but he says, he wasn’t clear.

Sheri:  I think it was accidental but I wouldn’t know.

Glenn:  Um, I’m going to differ a little with this one because he says something about, he says he wasn’t clear with this. I have to go with your dad because he is the stronger one who is bringing it in. This is really weird because your father said something about this to me yesterday and I wasn’t sure what it was and I was going to call you but I knew I was going to see you and I wanted to wait. But that’s what he is talking about. He’s pointing to his chest and his head. That’s what I’m confused about. Unless he wasn’t focused on what was going on. You know, something went into his system, because that’s what he’s telling me.

Sheri:  He took something.

Glenn:  That’s what it is because I feel like, from what comes up in front, he had an emotional imbalance, he ingested…I get 2 different things going into my system and then that just led to everything that happened.

Sheri:  Right.

Glenn:  I don’t feel a total intention but there was a disregard for his life, the way he ran it.

Sheri:  He was reckless.

Glenn:  Reckless in that sense.  I don’t know if this is a second one…did somebody else go over or this is the second time in doing….I mean you don’t do this 2 times…but in other words did he try to do this before? He says, he’s borderline with this before and um, I’m trying to get him to talk. He’s next to her. (Jessica)

Sheri:  Of course.

Glenn:  Who sides with who in the family, and for some reason, not to be insulting to you, your father’s behind you but he has to sit with her, he tells me that out of anybody,… it’s funny you brought her today.

Sheri:  It’s not funny…This is his baby

Glenn:  Out of anybody, that’s the one he has to come to. What’s with the school? He says, “Do what I say, don’t do what I do”.  He’s pushing her forward.  He seems okay.  He seems like he’s at peace on that side. I have to say that I bow down to your father because this man took the whole thing, handled the whole thing. I guess they’re made aware of it ahead of time, because your father says, “There was nothing I could do about it.”  He didn’t know your dad?

Sheri:  No

Glenn: He says, “I’m able to put people to the faces. He didn’t say it but it’s almost like, you put a name to the face. But he makes it seem like he knew the face but he didn’t know the person.  Now he goes, “I am able to put the person to the face”.

Sheri:  He saw pictures of them.

Glenn:  Right.  It took me a second as I was saying that.  Um. What’s the birthday?

Sheri:  Her, (Jessica) birthday is July 28th.

Glenn:  Your birthday’s coming up.  He’s turning around.  He wants a party for your birthday.  He’s going to put his humor into this.  He will go into a rest period, but he said, “I’m waiting for the birthday”. He wants to be around, and he sort of gives me this feeling like you better enjoy it.  In other words he says, “Don’t mourn this!  Enjoy it”. He is mentioning about a car.

Sheri:  Oh Danny’s car.

Glenn:  It’s funny because in a way, he goes, it’s almost like you figure this kid is out of the woods and he’s sort of going along and all of a sudden he said, it’s just like, I don’t want to call it a relapse but he says, he just wasn’t going to get it all together in this incarnation.

Sheri:  I knew that.

Glenn:  And he said, he did all he was supposed to do. He could have done worse.  And he says that he has a lot on that side…they’ve already told him he’s going to have a lot on that side to deal with. In other words, that will be laid out for him. It’s weird because I keep asking him, “Did you do this?” and he said, in an indirect way he sort of just did this to himself.  I don’t want to say a totally conscious way, but was this a party or something?

Sheri:  Daniel’s life was a party.

Glenn:  God!  He makes me feel like, he’s gona fly by the seat of his pants in life and just…but of all the things, I don’t know if somebody contacted a group that pray for him, but something’s been done for him and he said, he’s felt these waves of like, a prayer…a  wave of prayer.  He’s said he’s been getting these waves. He said he will go into a rest period shortly. He’s hanging for the birthday. He’s very protective of her. It’s kind of funny.

Sheri:  He always was.

Glenn: I’m trying to ask if it’s intentional and he says in an indirect way. It’s almost like an escape because he makes me feel like I am walking down a hallway and I see an exit door and he just decides to go out the exit, so I’m thinking, it’s not that I necessarily set it off, or necessarily wrote a note, but yet in the same sense, he was just playing Russian Roulette with himself.  “I’ll take this, I’ll do this…I’ll combine these”…knowing it was just like….you know. I still don’t understand the head and the chest thing or why he’s doing that.  Because he says something about, my head…he was so cloudy and then he did something else on top. And then he motions to his throat and his neck.

Sheri:  Did he suffer?

Glenn:  No. Not at all.  He was just in and out.  He wasn’t conscious.  He was just in and out. That’s what happened. He wanted me to recognize it. Was your other son away?  Was somebody supposed to be away at the time because he was apologizing that someone had to take a trip here. In a way, he’s a little taken back because he didn’t realize the wave of…

Sheri:  Love?

Glenn:  Of everything, yeah. I can’t imagine how he didn’t but it’s like I see with my kids.  They have everything…I always say to my kids, I didn’t have half the things you had growing up and I do it because I want them to have it, whether it’s the trips, or when my son needed a car. And he said, “You did more than that”, but he said, “for some reason, no matter what you did”…

Sheri:  It was never enough.

Glenn:  And it would never be, because this is like, I always tell my son, it’s always  “I want this, I want this.” As they get older it becomes bigger things…it’s no longer dolls or power rangers.  It becomes cars or whatever. But did you ever notice how that doesn’t even satisfy you.? You always go on to the next.  First I want a house. Then, I want a bigger house. Now I don’t want a big house.  I want a smaller house.    And he said, he just never. It was right in front of him. He says to say thank you because he understands that if he asked you for the world you would have tried to give it to him and he said that he recognizes his personality as being like, you know, the rebel…like being the rebellious.  And it’s almost like, he said, sometimes it was uncontrollable, that he would do things and watch himself do it and not even know why he was doing it.  And this is what happened at the end.

Was he supposed to start working or something and he wasn’t because he said, he makes a joke about it and he says, “I was supposed to get myself together”, as if everything was being set up for him.  And he says, with all these things that were done, not for you, you were never in a selfish mode…he’s apologizing to some friends as well.  Like I said, he’ll be around a little bit.  But then he will go into a rest period.  It’s your father’s family that stepped in he said, and I can’t say intervened, but came right—grabbed  him and pulled it  right through.  This is what he is implying. 

 

Understand that I don’t audibly hear him.  They’re not really talking to me.  I’m sort of getting a mental sensation.  But what’s interesting is… it’s so real to him.   And he is describing something that I have heard so many times, even in the state that he’s at.  When you get over there, whatever you are here, you are there, so mentally your environment always reflects, on this side as well, your environment will always reflect your thought processes.  As I was taught many years ago and the statement goes: your outer reality is always the place where your thoughts become objectified, materialized.  My environment will always reflect my thought and my heart…but he’s making me feel like it’s much more real. Almost like you’re waking up from a weird dream, but then he knows he has all this stuff to take care of, but this is how he wrote it out, so he said.  Even in passing, I’ve got to tell you something…it isn’t like he’s coming back and going “Wow, I should have”.  This is who he is.  He’ll hold true to himself he said.  There’s no one to blame.  I have to say again, it’s not a direct thing, but he really did this.  It wasn’t like total accident, he says, he just kind of put himself into oblivion, in a sense.  And he’s done this more than once, I don’t know whether he’s just, you know, pulled through it a few times and no one realized it, or you know…

Sheri:  I was often worried.

Glenn:  Oh, that’s what he said, he goes, “In one way there’s this massive loss, but in another way”, He goes, “Tell her it’s okay to feel relief because that’s what she’s feeling.  It’s like a very weird relief you’re feeling.

Sheri:  I’m not feeling it yet.

Glenn: Well, you will.  It’s like, you’ve been going at it for so long and all of a sudden.  What amazes me, in the midst of all of this, his concern for her.  (Jessica) I’m saying to myself, I didn’t really know him well enough, I maybe  met him once or twice.  But his disregard for certain things, but in the same sense what I just  find humorous is that, it’s almost like all the things that you’ve instilled, which you thought went in one ear and out the other, he’s now throwing on her. Which is hysterical because I’m saying to myself, here you said to him, “Bing, bing, bing,bing, bing, here’s the rules” and he turns around now, he totally was against them, he’s totally gona break them, and now he’s going to her, “It’s the rules!” I’m thinking to myself, this is like my kids telling me I’ve become my father….I go, “No, I was cool”. It’s almost like, he’s just flipped a role and so I think he’s letting you know that everything you say has got its place, or its point with it. 

Sheri:  I keep thinking that he is giving me advice.  Is that true?

Glenn:  He’s been coming. He says again he’s going to need a rest period but he said that your father was the one. I have to tell you, yesterday, this is so weird. Your father came to me and I was going to say something…I thought he said something about your son….but I was so crazy, I had so much going on.  But your father came once or twice, and I realized it was him, and he said he was just trying to give me an idea because he was trying to hold him on that side where he is, because he will go through this rest period.  He’s not a dark place, he’s not in a low place, that’s what we concern ourselves with.  But he says that…what is this?  He moved already? I’m confused with this.  You guys…you’re moving?

Sheri:  We moved into the city.  He had his own apartment for the first time. 

Glenn:  I’m telling you.  He said, it’s just like he’s looking at it all and thinking to himself, “How could I have not gotten this?” He had everything he could possibly…but sometimes there’s no contrast.  Sometimes you know, I look at my kids, I wonder, how can they not get it?  But they don’t know any different. They’ve only grown up with this. They’ve always had certain things. Basically they say, “I need”—and I run out and I get. My son doesn’t know any different and so he can’t see it.

Sheri:  He couldn’t see it.

Glenn:  Everything in this world is done through comparisons. What I’ve learned is you can’t have somebody speaking unless someone is remaining silent. You can’t have a team win a game unless somebody loses a game, you can’t be tall unless someone is short.  So whenever I ask either of you anything about your lives, the answer will be based on the comparison. I’m happy, I’m sad, I’m full, I’m hungry.  Everything you say, when you stop to think, has its equal and opposite. In this particular situation he had nothing to compare. He did in theory, but he didn’t understand it because it wasn’t experienced. He’s okay with this.  He says that shortly he’ll take this rest period and then he said he’s got his work cut out for him because he said he’s got to go through reviewing what he’s done in his whole life. He feels like his brother and his father had a different relationship than him and I bring it up because he says,“You should never feel like”…he understands that he was given opportunity. In one way he wasn’t in competition, because he said, “That was never me”. But in the same time sometimes he feels like, not that somebody’s favored, but sometimes you know, one person does things differently and he goes, “I had to work through all of that.  But he’s coming along with this.  It’s going to take a little while. 

You’re moving again now?

Sheri:  Yes, we’re moving again. We are staying temporarily in an apartment above Jerry’s office. We will be closing soon and moving into our new apartment on 99th st.

Glenn:  Okay. Because he’s talking about the move.  He’s surprised even, and your father is such a help, he says that he’s surprised how free he feels. Even though he’s probably more in a burdened state then some other people, he says he’s surprised how free he feels with everything .

Sheri:  Danny?

Glenn:  Yeah.  It’s interesting. I don’t think it’s something that any of us can comprehend until you experience it.  It’s almost like….we can explain what it’s like to be a parent, or to be married. And I used to think I knew what it feels like. I thought, “I know what it’s like to have a kid. My brother has 3.  I take care of my nephews. And then when I had mine it was like, “Oh my God!”

Sheri:  Danny’s feeling freer over…

Glenn: He’s starting to understand the freedom and he says it’s hard for us to understand because while we’re still in the mortal coil as we call it, you’re not going to recognize this. I don’t get the working. Is he supposed to be starting work?

Sheri:  He was supposed to start working for his dad.

Glenn:  Your other son is also working with him?

Sheri:  The brother works for the dad too.

Glenn:  Okay, because he says something about…he always saw himself below his brother. You know, you can’t do that. Each kid is separate. She can’t compare herself.  Everybody has their own little niche. He always felt like he wasn’t going to stack up, he wasn’t going to add up. You know, it’s like, this one had the credentials…I’m listening to this and I’m saying to myself….I go through this all the time with my guys. As I said, my youngest is going to that prep school where his brothers go. His brother graduated top in his class and this guy just made it in. But, that’s his journey in life. That’s what he chose. So this is what Danny chose in life and he says it’s a whole flip…he says he’s trying to understand it. He’s okay. He said that no one’s left him over there. I don’t know whether you asked him, because he said whether you realize it or not, you must have either said something to your dad, because he said no one’s left his side He says, tell her… he makes a joke like it’s okay, you can lighten your grip…meaning you, because he said, “Everybody’s made sure.”

Now, on that side, what’s going to happen? Well, you can be in a confused state of mind and then your environment will reflect it but he says, “No, I just have to get my rest and then, he said, “I will be about”.

Sheri:  He liked his rest.

Glenn:  Yeah, he’s funny like that, because he’s like a sleeper. He’s one of these people…So, he said, It’s funny because I thought he was going to say it’s like a bad dream but he made me feel like, this is the dream and that’s the reality. What’s overwhelming is his concern for his sister and his family realizing now what would happen. Sometimes, in self reflection, in one’s passing, as it happens like that, you never lose consciousness. You’re conscious before you’re born, you’re conscious during your life, and when you go over. There is never a point when you’re not. But, he said, “The realism of all of it.” I think it’s in his self-reflecting of what his life was like, he feels that it was so short, that maybe part of his karma was in reflecting and watching it…seeing how he basically was handed all these things. And the other thing I need to mention, this is for you and Jerry.  It wasn’t like you did anything that I would say do differently. And your father is shaking his head. He said it is very important I give you that message. He said, “There’s nothing you could have done”, he said, “That would have made any difference,” and I’m thinking like wow and he goes, “No one.” In other words it isn’t like, if I would have tried harder—no…he said.  He’s talking about trips to California and putting him here and trying that. He said part of it was karma for you to be tested because you came in to take on children and he said you had karma, just to let you know. Your dad is letting him talk. He said you have family karma, children karma in this lifetime. This was part of your trip, to go through a whole thing of having children and taking on children and doing it, and this is what your devotion would be, and your priority. And he said, so you did all that you could possibly do. And he said, in a certain language, he’s basically a screw up. He’s a little blunt with things…that’s the way he comes through with this, but he’s funny and he said, you know, it’s who he is. He says, “I guess I have to review all this now, there’s no free lunch with this because you’re just reviewing yourself…if you try to BS your way out of something…you’re just talking to yourself.” That’s the one thing, nobody is telling him he did something right or did something wrong, and he goes, “I’m not feeling like I have to do something, prove something. For the first time”, he goes, “I feel like I can do what I want and I’m told I can do whatever I want”, and the point is there’s no right or wrong and yet, he goes, “I sort of throw guilt on myself.” And this is really funny because here’s a case where on this side people are going, “You’ve got to get it together…you should go to work…go to this person…go to this counselor, and you know, it’s almost like as if it kept him always like, “Okay, I’m the crazy one if you want me to do all this stuff.”  On this side he said, “No one puts any limitations on me at all” and because of that he’ll do it to himself.  And he says, “They’ll just leave you”. Over here he’s explaining that if you say you don’t want to do it, you don’t have to do it. And he said that the weird part is that there is this total freedom and he goes, “But it’s scary because no one is telling you that you are doing something right or wrong, you just experience the result of what you want and then that will feel good or it won’t feel good. So, he says, this is the process he is going to have to go through. He’s apologizing to the family, like I guess grandparents…older people in the family too because he said, something that I have heard a million people say, and it includes you, no parent or grandparent should ever witness a child going over. For that he reaches out. He said, and your dad said also, there should be another child coming into the family.

 

He’s sort of getting an orientation. It’s being explained to him that he can go and he can do what he wants to do, but through his own reflections he says, “I will get some rest” and then he says “I’m going to” and it’s going to sound…these words coming out of his mouth but he says, “I’m going to be getting to work”.  So there’s an odd one because he was supposed to go to work and he says, “Well, in a way I’m doing it…there’s no short cuts.”  Almost like, “Shucks…I did this thinking I’m going to get out of the work and there’s no getting away from it.” I’m just hysterical at the way he comes through like, all of a sudden, the responsible sibling giving the younger one…like you know…sounding like something you and I would say.  So, maybe there’s something to be said about that. He mentions some educational things in front of her, not just school but some things she may get herself involved in. I won’t color what she should be doing but he said, “She’ll have to do with some helping of other people down the road and he said this experience is going to aid in that, so he goes, “People will listen to her.”  So he wants me to recognize this. There’s supposed to be also a trip…he says something about there will be a trip planned. He will be in and out for a while till the end of the month or so and then he’s going to take a bit of a rest period. He’s going to try to contact you. Watch the most common things as I’ve always told you, a fragrance…I find lights going on and off…things of that nature …that stuff happens, so just to be aware about it because this is what he’s presenting and showing up in front. Your dad’s been around you constantly, in a sense that you can’t even imagine, in a very intense way. You willed him in whether you realize it or not. Everybody over there has got it all under control. So, he’s still got some things to sort of deal with. 

Sheri:  How could he not?

Glenn:  He’s going to. Life is taken a certain way and so we do come back and we do have options. So, he says, “Oh no.  In no way am I”…and this is like I said before, he has plenty of work. To reach certain levels you have to work at it and he says, “Oh, I know that” but he said he was concerned…It’s funny. He was concerned. He said his one regret is that he never thought of the ramifications of the acts he did on other people.  And he said, “For the first time in my life” and this is still his life, he goes,“That’s what’s hitting me the hardest.” So he said, “The ramifications of what I do affects other people” and he said that he’s feeling the intensity of other people feeling his loss and that’s sort of like, how do I say…an echo flaps back on him, so his own act is now coming back to haunt him. So, he says, “Sometimes when I feel a little pulled down, I’m realizing it’s not that I feel that myself”, he said. Other people have felt frustrated about him. You know, they miss him or whatever. So he said, “Sometimes it’s a little difficult”, and that’s what can send a person down. So that’s why I always tell people, “Don’t mourn a person when they go over, celebrate them and send them positive thoughts.”

Sheri:  So hard not to.

Glenn:  Listen…I don’t know.  I’ve been doing this my whole life and I don’t know if I could sit in that chair and go through what you are going through. I know a woman who was a bereavement counselor who lost her daughter and almost had to be put away. I can sit here and preach this all day but I don’t know what I’d be capable of doing. I know in theory what’s right but until you go through these experiences…

He walked over to you again…no offense, he starts to laugh but he’s got his hands on her shoulders. It’s almost like she has to have something of his to hold on to. I feel like I’m holding someone’s shirt or jacket. She may maintain something of his, which he feels might help keep the link between the two of them. He will be around so you can talk to him, or your dad. Your dad just stepped up. Your father said that this took a lot out of him but he wanted to make sure that you knew he was okay.  Your dad did come to you, and you’ve been talking but he said your sleep has not been solid. Your father said, he’s been trying to come through but you weren’t clear enough. So just watch because you may have a few events where you might sense somebody around, so don’t think you’re crazy. In a way the move is going to be good because your father said the new environment will be such that it will be a new thing for you, a new start. It’s very hard to be in an old place where you’ve been for so long and you look and you go, “Oh, my goodness…so and so always used to sit here.”  So, he says, “ In a way that’s all going to work out together” and they are all kind of working with her with the school and stuff like that, so you’ve got a lot of push there with it. They’re going to stand back.  They are stepping back. 

 

So, once a day just talk to him for about 2 minutes a day.  He will feel the intention.  You can say something to him like, “Just let me know that you are okay” and then sit still for a moment. If you do it on a regular basis, he’ll come through.

 

This session brought me enormous relief! Danny was okay, Danny was with my father, Danny had survived death, Danny was still Danny! I had believed that personality survives death for a long time, but when Danny passed, my sorrow and resistance were so great, that I was initially unable to access any of that knowledge. However, having this session changed everything by reassuring me of what I already knew: that Danny is still the same conscious being that I knew and loved, that he exists in a different dimension and that if I want to be in touch, I have to seek him where he dwells. The words came back to me again and I knew I that I would spend a good portion of my time and energy exploring and learning how to connect up with Danny.

 

One of the things that surprised me was the fact that Danny mentioned the “waves of prayer” that he experienced. I knew from my healing experience that energy directed to humans from spirit could be very powerful, but I didn’t realize how powerful it can be when it is directed from humans to spirits. It pleased me to think that those prayers reached him. Danny goes on to comment about the value of prayer directed to them on that side from us on this side, in many future sessions.

 

What I found very reassuring was the accuracy of everything Glenn talked about, right down to the last detail. From the fact that Dan had taken 2 different substances to his reckless lifestyle, to his protectiveness of his younger sister, Dan was true to form. It was as if we were having a conversation, openly and honestly discussing what had taken place since the last time we had been together. Even more evidential to me was the fact that Danny was Danny. His personality was intact.

 

It began to occur to me that Danny and my father weren’t hanging around the medium; they were hanging around me and it is because they knew that I would go to the medium that they made it their destination as well. As I left Glenn’s office I vowed to take Danny with me and to think of him, my father and Harry Edwards as my “spiritual entourage.” From that time on it became easier for me to open my own channels to hearing Danny and receiving messages and signs directly from him. I just started to listen to what was going on inside my own mind without dismissing it as figments of my imagination!

 

I began to find that when I was extremely despondent I would feel a presence around me and then I would be flooded with thoughts. I heard all of these thoughts in my own voice, but it was the content of what I heard that made me sit up and think, for in the midst of despair came words of love and comfort. It was hard to imagine that I could supply that kind of balm to myself when I was so grief-stricken. .

 

I remember vividly going to the cemetery shortly after Dan’s funeral. My husband and I stood at Dan’s majestic gravestone and cried. We couldn’t believe that this was where our son had ended up, under the ground at 22 years old, with nothing to mark his life but this black granite gravestone. I could see that Jerry was overwrought and then I heard these thoughts. “You guys can stand here and cry over this piece of land all you want but I’m not under there. I’m out here and I’m getting back in the car….and I’m riding shotgun”.  Now, this was so Dan that I was awestruck!  He often fought with his siblings over who rode “shotgun” in the car. I strongly felt his desire to see us move away from his grave because at least right now, it was unearthing raw emotions. Sensing this I walked over to Jerry, took him by the arm and led him back to the car. “Danny wants us to leave,”, I said.

It was moments like this that made me believe that it was possible for me to have a communication, on my own with Danny. As time went on I began to benefit more and more from these moments of connecting up. They filled me with a strong sense of Dan and helped me to miss him a little less.  Admittedly, I can’t see him and I’d give anything for five more minutes in his physical presence, but when I allow myself to sense him and to listen to what I believe to be his thoughts, I am, to one degree or another, lifted up by it. Sometimes I cry, but it’s a good cry.

Sometimes the ideas would come so quickly that I would turn on my computer to type out what I was hearing. The following material is dated July 13, 2008, 12 days after Danny passed. I call it:  Words of Wisdom From Dan:

“You’ve got to develop a little bit more of that “fuck it” attitude. You can’t sweat everything all the time. There is a medium ground between caring and not caring, the middle road, where one cares, but not to the point of devastation. You will self- destruct. I, in life, leaned too far to the not caring side and therefore could not adequately protect myself.  You, on the other hand, can sway so far to the caring side, that you do the harm to yourself without needing to put anything in your body.  It comes right from the emotions into your physical body.

I beg of you to lighten up, for your own sake as well as mine. Remember how you used to say that you are as happy as your most miserable child? Well, your misery can only bring me down because it fills me with remorse.  I understand your dilemma but, understand mine. If you want to help me, to lift me up, then lift yourself up and you lift us both up. You are a strong woman mom, stronger than you think. Pool all your resources now that have gotten you through in the past.   Know that I love you and always will and that you are the one that always said, “Love is the only thing that spans the grave.

There will be time for us to venture forward and for me to join you in your work, as you have always known I would.  Give me some time to get my bearings and I will come through for you time and time again. We will grow stronger and in time you will walk with both feet solidly on the ground, knowing that I am by your side at all times.

If you must cry mommy, then cry for all those who are suffering now, they are all over the place, the lost and lonely ones, the poor and hungry ones, the sick and disabled ones, the oppressed and forsaken ones. Don’t cry for me, for I am ok and so are you. This separation as you see it is temporary and nothing so tragic has happened here. This is the life we lead, one that incorporates death as surely as it encapsulates birth and one cannot exist without the other.

Go forward in peace and trust that I am with you and that you have not been forsaken, you are only experiencing another facet of life that many have experienced before you and that many shall experience after you, the loss of a child.  But those children are only lost to you in the flesh. In spirit each is alive and vital.  If only you could see just a small glimpse more than you do.  But remember, faith is belief in that which is not visible. If it were self evident, why would there be any need for faith?

I leave you for now with the fervent prayer that you rise up and live up to the knowledge that you have worked so hard to cultivate. I know that these are big words for me, but it is your vocabulary that makes this possible.  I just send you the impression. You flesh it out in words.

Mommy, I love you more than ever. Can you feel it? Open up your heart and feel it. It is stronger than the pain. Like you always said, Love is the strongest, most powerful force in the universe, the only thing that really makes life worth living, so feel it now.

I was moved by what I had written. I hadn’t thought of my grief in terms of how it could be affecting Dan. I kept thinking about what he said about needing to lift myself in order to lift him.

“Well, your misery can only bring me down because it fills me with remorse.  I understand your dilemma but, understand mine. If you want to help me, to lift me up, then lift yourself up and you lift us both up.”

It made a lot of sense, especially in his case where he passed by his own hand. Guilt has never been a stranger to me so I could easily imagine feeling terribly guilty if my actions had brought so much pain to so many. But how was I to lift myself? What a tall task, yet as his mother, how could I not try?

For the first time it really struck me that what I feel and do still affects Danny. This seemed radical to me, even though I had believed in the presence of spirit for a long time. Now I wondered how I could think that Danny existed but was without any feelings? He may be a bloodless ghost but he is not soulless.

When I asked myself if there was any way that I could lift my spirits I found myself confronted with enormous resistance to feeling better. There was almost an unspoken understanding that if Danny could not enjoy a meal that I certainly shouldn’t either. It seemed sacrilegious to do anything that my son couldn’t do and even my breathing had become shallow.

However, now I felt obligated to think about Dan’s words because they made sense. If I accepted that he had gone on, (and I had) how could I negate his feelings? Wouldn’t I feel remorse if my actions, accidental or otherwise, had brought about so much suffering in the people I loved?

As a mother, I have always tried to help my children in any way that I could but this seemed a tall task. Still, if it would help Danny, didn’t I have to consider it? What I discovered was that I was not allowing myself to experience any happiness, because, in light of Dan’s passing, I felt it was wrong. I had a lot of thinking to do about this. If I was going to live believing in the valid presence of spirit then I had to make room for it, and be open to the messages that came to me, either through my own spiritual window or that provided by the mediums. I realized that to accept that Dan exists also means being open to his experience and if my sorrow was causing him to feel remorse, then I knew I had to work on it.

“If you want to help me, to lift me up, then lift yourself up and you lift us both up.”

I knew this wouldn’t be easy…the joyous bereaved?  Come on. Isn’t that the biggest misnomer? But underneath all this confusion my heart was dancing to think that Danny really was himself, in another form and in another realm, yes, but himself! His spirit had survived death and was still with me. I decided to work to keep my heart and mind open and to continue to explore connecting up with Danny in any way, shape, or form I could find.

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Can Anyone Connect Up?

Can anyone connect up? I’ve always wondered. Many mediums will tell you that they possessed the gift of inner sight from the time they were small children. However, I’m beginning to believe that we can all connect up and that we often do, without even realizing it.

Ever since Dan passed on July 1, 2008, in moments of deep sadness, I hear (in my own voice), what I have come to believe are thoughts that Dan is sending me. These thoughts would usually begin by referring to me as mom or Sheri, (Dan was fond of calling me by my first name), and they would sound like this: “Mom, I’m okay and I’m right here with you.”  I’d think, “Oh, that’s just my imagination” and initially I dismissed all these thoughts as imagination. But the thoughts kept occurring. Whenever I felt the most bereft, I would be flooded by these loving and comforting thoughts which would lift my heart momentarily, until I dismissed them all as imagination. Then one day, as I was dismissing some thoughts I heard, “Well Sheri, what do you think imagination is? Where do the imagined thoughts come from, did you ever think of that?” No, I guess I hadn’t, but I knew I would now.

I now believe that thoughts can enter your consciousness that have been directed to you from spirit, but it is hard to recognize them or to distinguish them from your own wishful thinking. That is why it is so easy to dismiss them as imagination, assuming that spirit messages would be heard loudly and clearly resonating with a sense of other-worldliness. Never do we assume that spirit messages might be heard in our own voices, sounding as if we were talking to ourselves, but, in my experience, that is how it the thoughts come through, in my own voice, as if I am talking to myself.

I started paying closer attention to these thoughts and at times I had to laugh out loud, for in his inimitable way, Danny was teasing me. “Mom, you are so dramatic” he would say when I was beginning to get emotional or “Sheri, you’re a gossip!” when I was telling a good story. It seemed to me like he was making me look at myself through his eyes, however I didn’t trust that it was really coming from him.

Sometimes these thoughts came so quickly and emotionally that I would grab my computer and start writing.  The first time that I did this I was both moved and amazed by what I had written however, I found it hard to believe that this information came from Dan and not my wishful thinking mind.  I might have gone on mistrusting everything that came through to me this way for the rest of my life, however sessions with Glenn Dove and other fine mediums confirmed practically everything that I had been hearing directly! It was only then that I realized this was actually possible for me. The fact that I was capable of doing this on my own was a revelation to me for I now understood that ordinary people could connect up, and that it has a lot to do with trusting what you hear.

GETTING STARTED

THE GROUND RULE: KEEP AN OPEN MIND

The first most important component needed to connect up is an open mind. That does not mean that you need to have certainty about it. Keep in mind that faith does not imply certainty. On the contrary faith involves a leap of trust into that which you cannot readily see or verify, for it what we were talking about were seeable and self-evident, there would be no need for faith.

THE PRACTICE: PUT ASIDE TIME

Everyday or a few times a week, take a few minutes and find a quiet place where you can relax and use Focused Breathing, (outlined below) to quiet your mind and bring your focus into the present moment. I always start a connect-up exercise with a meditation to quiet my mind.

A.  FOCUSED BREATHING

1.  Start by finding a quiet place where you can sit or lie down comfortably.  If possible, turn off everything that might distract you.  Ideally you want to have a quiet space, but you actually can do this exercise anywhere from the doctor’s office to sitting in bumper-to-bumper traffic in a taxi.  I don’t recommend doing this while driving a car.

2.  Begin by inhaling and exhaling through your nose. (If you have a cold you can use your mouth). Now focus all your awareness on the tip of your nose and imagine that you are the gatekeeper at the gates of a big city and that it is your very important job to watch the coming and going of your breath.

3.  Focus solely on your breath and feel it as it passes in and out of your nostrils.  As you breath in think, “I am breathing in cool” and as your breath out think, “I am breathing out warm.” Feel the cool air as it enters your nostrils and the warm air as it leaves you.  “Breathing in cool, breathing out warm.  Breathing in cool, breathing out warm.  In cool, out warm.  In cool, out warm. “ Try to maintain your focus on the breath.

4.  Inevitably your mind will wander.  This is normal and common.  Most people find that their minds wander off constantly.  Like a monkey swinging from branch to branch, the mind swings from one thought into another. Here is an example of how the mind can wander: “What did she say? I can’t remember. It had something to do with the dog. Did I remember to give the dog water? Damn, this isn’t working! I’m supposed to be breathing. I can never do anything right. Did I remember to give the dog water?” On and on your mind will wander off.  As soon as you realize that you have lost the awareness of your breath, as if you were training a puppy, gently lead your mind back to your breathing. Again and again your mind will wander off. Again and Again you will return yourself to the breath.

5.  “Breathing in cool, breathing out warm.  Breathing in cool, breathing out warm.  In cool, out warm. In cool, out warm.” You will find that eventually, from this process of catching yourself lost in thought and continually returning to your breath, that you will begin to see your thoughts from a different perspective.  You will be able to step back from your usual stance in the middle of “monkey mind”.  All of a sudden you will realize that you are not your thoughts at all, but the awareness in which all those thoughts take place!  From this vantage point, you can see your thoughts from a distance. I ask you now, who is this you that breathes and thinks and comes back to breath? Your consciousness is indefinable and it is not limited to your thinking mind.

Hopefully, after working with the meditation for a while you will be able to observe your thoughts. This type of meditation has been referred to as “Cultivating the Witness” because it changes your perspective from one that is lost in thought to one that observes the thoughts.

B.  CHARACTERIZED BREATHING—ADDING VISUALIZATION TO THE BREATH

I learned the technique of Charcterized Breathing from the late British spiritual healer Harry Edwards whose gift of spiritual healing saved my life in 1071.  Harry explained that by adding visualization to the breath  you literally make it possible to draw energy into yourself from invisible forces that are around you . We all know that there are radio waves and television waves in the atmosphere even though we cannot see them.  Why is it so hard to imagine the presence of other invisible energies around us as well? It’s a question worth asking. Why must something be measurable in physical terms in order for it to be considered real?

1.  FILLLING YOURSELF WITH ENERGY–Continue with your breathing and  focusing on the feeling of the breath as it enters and leaves your nostrils.  This time, as you inhale feeling the cool air, visualize streams of energy entering into you.  You can envision this as golden light as I do, or anything else that comes to mind, however, in your mind’s eye, imagine that you are drawing cool healing energy into you.  As you exhale imagine this energy filling your body right out to your fingertips and the tips of your toes. Again, inhale drawing this energy into you and as you exhale imagine directing this energy throughout your entire body.

2.     DIRECTING THE ENERGY INTO YOUR HANDS—(for hands-on healing) As you inhale, deeply and fully, imagine that you are drawing streams of healing energy into you.  As you exhale, envision that energy entering into your hands; breathing in healing energy, mentally directing it into your hands as you exhale.  Stay with the breath: Breathing in cool healing energy, breathing out warm energy entering hands.  Place your hands anywhere on your body where you desire to receive this healing.  You can place a hand on your heart for emotional healing. As you inhale you think, “I am drawing healing energy into me.” As you exhale you think, “I am directing this energy into my hands and from my hands into my body.

3.     THE LOVE INFUSION, AN ENERGY EXCHANGE WITH SPIRIT—SENDING OUT AND DRAWING IN. Envision your loved one standing about 3 feet away from you.  Continue to inhale deeply and fully, envisioning streams of healing energy entering into you. This time, as you exhale and feel the warm air passing out of the tip of your nostrils, imagine sending that energy out from you to your loved one. As you breathe in you think, “I am inhaling cool healing energy into me,” as you exhale you think, “ I am sending this healing energy and love outward to you.”  And again, inhaling the energy into you, and exhaling the energy outward from you to your loved one.

4.     ADDING DIALOGUE—Continue to draw energy into you as you inhale. On the exhale, as you envision sending this energy to your loved one you say, either mentally or out loud, “I love you, I love you I send you this love.” Say it over and over until you have emptied out all the air in your lungs. Now, use your imagination to help you envision your loved one speaking those same or similar words back to you as you inhale. Breathe in deeply and fully and as you do this, envision drawing this love and energy into you as you repeat those same words this time coming from your loved one to you, “I love you, I love you, I send you this love“ Keep repeating the words and envisioning your loved on saying them to you, until you have inhaled all the air possible into your lungs.  Continue to repeat these words coordinating them with the in-breath and the out-breath. You will find that it is easy to do the exhale, because you are expressing the love that you feel. Initially, you may feel grave doubts about the inhale part, but stay with it because energy is exchanged. The fact is that your loved one is close but invisible to you. None-the-less, there can be a valid energy exchange from which you will emerge stronger. Even if it were merely a figment of your imagination it would be energizing, however, I have every reason to believe that a true energy exchange takes place.

C.  ASKING A QUESTION—KEEPING A JOURNAL

Now you can relax your breathing.  If necessary give yourself a moment to calm down; the energy exchanges can be emotional but they are positive in nature because they focus on sending and receiving love. If you feel nothing more definitive than you expressing your love to your child this is still positive. In time, you will feel positive energy coming back to you.

For this next part, I suggest having a journal. Now, simply ask your loved one a question, anything will do, for example: “How are you doing over there? Are you okay? Do you know how much I miss you?” Now here’s the tricky part….let whatever comes into your mind be a suitable answer and write it down, whatever it is, write it down.  At first it may feel as if you are merely answering yourself, but go with it. At the very least, our thoughts are influenced.  Sit for five to ten minutes and see what thoughts and emotions come up for you. Record everything in your journal. Perhaps you will feel that this is foolishness. If that’s the case, write it down.  Then close your journal and go about the rest of your day.

D.  ASKING FOR SIGNS—KEEPING YOUR EYES OPEN FOR THEM

Now that you’re accepting the premise that your child may be very close, another way to connect up is through signs. It’s a lot fun. My friend and a member of The Prayer Team has a wild time finding pennies and dimes from her son in a precise pattern. I must say that although you can write these signs off as coincidences, sometimes it is equally  difficult to believe that they were purely random events.  Besides the fact that receiving a sign can be greatly comforting, the act of asking for a sign and keeping your eyes open for it can be a lot of fun and can add another dimension to explore.  It’s as simple as saying, “Danny, give me a sign”. But it’s important to keep it light….not to try too hard.

For example, last week I had an appointment at the Apple Store to get some assistance with my computer. When I got there and checked in I was told to expect about a 30 minute wait. I was instructed to find a seat and look for my name which would be posted on these big screens that were up on the walls. So, I found a chair, sat myself down and thought, “Okay Dan. Could you give me a sign?” Right after I had that thought I looked over to the screens to see if my name had come up. I was registered as Sheri Migdol.  When I looked up, I saw that I was number 7 in line, listed as sheri m. What really blew my mind was that number 6 in line was Daniel M. No kidding. Now this could be a coincidence. But, what really are the chances? I was so excited that I took a picture of the screen however I can’t seem to get it to post here. I will keep trying.

If you desire to connect with your child,  put a little time aside and reach out in thought and prayer. Then let it go and see what happens. Some of you might want to keep a journal. But whatever you do, just keep loving them as I know you do. And if you try any of this out, or already have been doing your own thing, please share that with the rest of us. I think we all have a lot to learn from each other.

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My Adventures with Mediums I Know and Love

My Adventures with mediums I know and Love

People often ask me why I have so much faith in an afterlife and my answer is always this: because I’ve seen it. I’ve been connecting up with people on the other side since the early 1970’s and the more that I investigate the issue, the more I am convinced that we all survive death.

My recommendation to any of you who desire to know if your loved ones have gone on is to make your own investigation and see for yourselves. I didn’t believe in a realm of spirit until I encountered it head-on in 1971. An unexpected spiritual healing experience woke me up to the realization that there was more to life than what I could see with my eyes. However, it is the investigating that has taken place in the years following that healing experience that has thoroughly convinced me that the essence of every living being exits the body at death and moves on, each and every one.

I could not have known that my great interest in spiritualism would one day be so helpful to me, however, when Danny passed, it was not a question of whether he had survived death or not, but of how to find him and how to connect up with him. Going to mediums, both in private or groups settings was certainly one thing I knew how to explore, but I also wanted to pursue a direct connection to Danny, to see if I could perceive Danny’s presence on my own. I also wanted to investigate different mediums and see how they worked and what they were each capable of.  So, I am always continuing my investigations and I figure that the best thing I can do for you, is to pass it all on and boy, do I have a story for you!

On March 20, 2011 , I had the opportunity to take part in a group session with the medium Hoyt Robinette. He was presenting in Chappaqua New York at the home of Helen Escoffier, who is the founder of STAR VISIONS, which is a center for spiritual growth. I had seen Hoyt twice before, once in Maryland and then again in Rye New York and he always took my breath away with his abilities. Hoyt is a “Blindfold Billet Reader” and for those of you who do not know what billets are, I will briefly state that they are small pieces of paper on which you are instructed to write down the names of those in spirit who you wish to contact as well as one question you would like answered. Can you imagine that? The very idea of summoning someone in spirit and asking them a question is really out of this world, but it happens.

If you want to read about my first experience with a Blindfold Billet Reader you can go to www.sheriperl.com/bereavement-blog and that article should be front and center, however, this was probably my 10th billet reading and so I decided to do something that even I thought was pretty far out! It is common and I’m sure expected that sitters, (those taking part in the session who are not the medium—us) will put down the names of loved ones and people they have known who are in spirit. The medium, whose eyes are both taped shut and blindfolded, holds each billet one at a time in his hands, during which time he connects up with at least one of the names written on the billet and then delivers the answer to your question.  I was shocked the first time I experienced a billet reading, but now that I’m old hat at it, I put a great deal of thought into what question I am going to ask. I always have so many. But this time I had an idea for something new I wanted to try out.

I have an old childhood friend who I met in sleep-away camp. Ira and I hadn’t seen each other in years when I learned that his son passed approximately 6 months after Danny, also of an overdose. I kept reaching out to my friend, hoping to get him to come to an event and connect up with his son. After a while it became clear to me that he could not open his mind to the idea and that he really thought I was off my rocker. Still, I felt as if his son was asking me to play a part by reaching out to his dad. “If only I could get something evidential”, I thought and then I had an idea. I could use my billet reading to see if I could get a message to Sam, (the boy). I would ask Sam to give me something evidential that I could tell his father to prove that he existed! It was a radical idea. Sam had never met me. I had no idea if this was even in the realm of possibilities but I decided to give it a try. On my billet I wrote Sam’s first and last name and then I wrote the following: Sam can you tell me something I can tell your dad so that he will know that you exist?”

Mine was about the 5th billet the medium picked up. He immediately asked who Sam was and I said he was the son of my friend. He then said that Sam was fine, and that he was no longer in pain. “Oh great,” I thought, “I’ll just call Ira and tell him that Sam is no longer in pain!” I was just about to accept that my idea didn’t exactly pan out when the medium said, “There is a grandfather or a great grandfather named Ira. Tell him that.”

The next day I emailed Ira and found out that, in fact, his grandfather’s name was Ira and of course, this man was Sam’s great grandfather.  “How do you think I knew this?” I asked him.  Then I explained. All he could say was, “That’s amazing!” and yes it was and is amazing and of course, I am exerting what pressure I can on Ira to come in May when Reverend Ron Fredrics will be doing Blindfold Billet Readings here in my apartment. But I’ll tell you, I’m curious now!  Just think of the possibilities, I mean can we summon anyone by billet? What if I listed Albert Einstein? Is the world of spirit so close that we can talk to almost anyone? The whole idea of it is so far out and yet, Sam and I never met and I only knew his father for a brief time during my youth. Yet, somehow Sam knew he had been summoned and he also understood the implications of the question and answered with exactly the kind of information I was hoping for. Now this is cause for thought.

I know that most of you don’t care about contacting anyone but your beloved child but I share this story to show what is possible if you reach out. I truly believe that if you reach out to your loved ones in spirit by sending them thoughts, that they will hear them and they will respond in one way or another. We just have to learn how to “listen.”

I will continue to share all that I explore and most of you know, I am scratching out a book about my adventures. Please feel free to use the comment space below to share with me and the others some of your adventures. What is possible for one is possible for all!

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March 31, 2011 Prayers for Fukushima Nuclear Plant

Some of you may be familiar with Dr. Masuru Emoto who wrote the books about water crystals. I met him at a conference in Montreal in 2006 where he presented  some amazing slides of his experiments with water. According to Dr. Emoto, water has consciousness and responds to thought. The experiments showed that water responded to positive loving thoughts by freezing into beautiful crystalline formations while at the same time, water exposed to negative unloving thoughts formed into rather discordant, unattractive blobs.

 

Dr. Emoto believes that we should join together to send loving prayer to the water of the Fukushima nuclear plant. Below is a direct quote from Dr. Emoto:

 

“Fellow citizens of the planet earth, let’s do our first try together as follows:

Day and time: on Thursday March 31, 2011 12:00 noon in each time zone. Please say the following phrase:

The water of Fukushima Nuclear plant, we are sorry to make you suffer. Please forgive us. We thank you, and we love you.

 

Please say it aloud or in your mind. Repeat it 3 times as you put your hands together in a prayer position. Please offer your sincere prayer.  With love and gratitude” Masuru Emoto Missionary of water

 

 

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